I can't be here anymore. I need to go somewhere. So i've figured it out. My escape plan: Reading. Reading allows me to enter into a world where all my pain is gone. And my worries are lessened. For the few moments I have a book in my hands everything is forgotten. I soon enter into this world where everything is more perfect-Where everything is solved easier- and no matter how many times the people seem to screw up, their always accepted. I'm not big on reading. But when I find something .. I won't be able to put it down. Re-reading the Twilight saga now:). The one book that I found the most.. Relatable was Lock and Key by Sarah Dessen. The book fits perfectly into my life. And the things I was, or am, going through. Book description:
What happens when your past is not just past, but wiped clean entirely? How do you figure out where you're going when you can't even claim where you've been? These were the questions that inspired Lock and Key. It's the story of a girl named Ruby who is abandoned by her mother and determined to make it on her own, even---and especially---when she is sent to live with her long-lost sister in a whole new world of privilege, family, and relationships. As Ruby learns, there's a big difference between being given help and being able to accept it. And sometimes, it takes reaching out to someone else to save yourself.
What happens when your past is not just past, but wiped clean entirely? How do you figure out where you're going when you can't even claim where you've been? These were the questions that inspired Lock and Key. It's the story of a girl named Ruby who is abandoned by her mother and determined to make it on her own, even---and especially---when she is sent to live with her long-lost sister in a whole new world of privilege, family, and relationships. As Ruby learns, there's a big difference between being given help and being able to accept it. And sometimes, it takes reaching out to someone else to save yourself.
aaahh. Sometimes I make myself confused. Everytime I sit up I get head rushes. He can talk to me first. I really miss Kabri and Amye. Adam and Emma are my world. I adore you. People that are in my life make me stronger. I care for ALL my friends. Sometimes I try to hard. I dont even know what I like anymore. Im only into you because I've never met someone like you.. Yet. You're about to be replaced. I remember everyone in my life. I dont understand why people leave. I pray when im scared or having troubles. I like when people know im always here. I want to make an impact in someones life. I disprove of liars. Hypocrites REALLY bug me. Im afraid of not being accepted. Dying makes me even more scared. Peoples opinions affect me. every way. Last night I remembered a part of my life that scars me. I love meeting new people. I act different around EVERYONE. I tell pointless stories.. All the time. Sometimes I just want a hug. I'm generally nice to everyone. I hate processed cheese. I judge people. But I love meeting people that like to express themselves. Theres more to life than material things. I wish some people would open their eyes. Some day we'll all have to grow out of this face. I like making guys jealous. I pretend im not intrested when I just cant stop thinking of you. I hate how people label you by your hair colour. Everyone needs to learn to look past the appearence. I am strong. But so weak. Its hard to say I miss you. Mouthoy on Harry Potter is gorgeous. I like guys with nice hair. My unconscious mind makes me seek people who have troubles in life. Im afraid of being me because i might by judged to harshly. I hate sluts. Even more I hate people who call me a slut. Love isnt about the words we say, the actions we take, the things we do, the hearts we break, its about people who can look at each other.. and just know. I hate how people deny the obvious. or even worse, how you ignore the obvious. I feel that love is a feeling that will never go away. I hope I was your favorite mistake. All my Photobucket pictures are depressing. But im in love with them all. Sometimes everyone just needs to believe.
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