.. So i'm sitting in my bed, watching Julie and Julia. I know. Amazing. And I'm hoping you dont answer the txt I just sent you. I dont understand guys. I sent this guy a txt, someone who was a big part of my summer. I was being nice ! I said merry christmas =). And then we started talking .. Then he told me to move down to Florida with him to date and i said how he had his chance and how .. Oh great. He just answered my txt. NOOO I CANT BARE TO LOOK AT IT. (HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH omfg. You DONT want to know what he just said) What a douche bag. He is such a pig. ass. idiot.. And urg. Just makes me so mad. He got with my best friend, tried to get with Amye over the summer (hahaha). Of course i'm sitting here, laughing at him and forwarding all the txts me and him are sending, to Amye. All I said in response to his disgusting message was " ohhh ? " aaahh NO I cant still have feelings for him. and I dont. But you know when someone you used to like SO much, then you start talking again, and all those old feelings come up. To me, this feels like heartburn. The burning acid thats about to come up my throat .. I know its coming. But its not quite here yet. He makes me sick. and doesnt respect girls.. as much as I would like a guy too. Oddly enough, I dont see myself back with this guy.. as much as I may like him. or once liked him. I have to remember everything.. The good times, and the bad. How me and him would hang out everynight. Him driving 180 too Davidson hahaha ( Amye remembers this night ;)) Then the water tower. LMFAO. the swing set in Davidson with me him Amye and Patrick HAHAH. his moms car, hiding from the police in d-Town because we were out past curfew lol, swimming, his dirt bike omg doubling on that thing was soo much fun hahaha, the bathrooms at the pool, swimming, school basement, fireworks on Canada Day, 2 summers ago, trying to hook Amye up with him LMFAO.. oh my god, I dont even know. There's sooo many memories I have with him. Like we were swimming once in the dam and I went towards the middle and he was too cold (it was about 12 water was freezing) and he thought we were skinny dipping.. But no. We weren't. he was. not me though. hahahahahah. and how he wrestled me into the water IN ALL MY CLOTHING and I had to wear his sweater while he was driving me home, and got his whole arm stuck in the chain on his steering wheel. Or however many times he asked me too sleep over, I was denied him.
Best thing ever though, when he told me that he would be my Edward Cullen.
Its amazing how attached you can get to a certain person. After everything though, I regret. Nothing. And I would do it all over again if i had the chance.
And then there's him, the guy Im trying to get. The one that maaaaaybe just my friend.. It never hurts to try though, right ? After all, we all just want to be found in life. And want to be wanted.
Merry Christmas everyone. :) ! !
Remeber, Nothing is impossible.
And dont be afraid to love. Dont hold back. Give life your all, while you still can. Dont be afraid of the life you were given. If its ment to be. Its ment to be.
I also talked to my TWO OF my number ones last night on the phone for a few hours. I love them both.
Secret #2
Im afraid of telling you.
x.
Best thing ever though, when he told me that he would be my Edward Cullen.
Its amazing how attached you can get to a certain person. After everything though, I regret. Nothing. And I would do it all over again if i had the chance.
And then there's him, the guy Im trying to get. The one that maaaaaybe just my friend.. It never hurts to try though, right ? After all, we all just want to be found in life. And want to be wanted.
Merry Christmas everyone. :) ! !
Remeber, Nothing is impossible.
And dont be afraid to love. Dont hold back. Give life your all, while you still can. Dont be afraid of the life you were given. If its ment to be. Its ment to be.
I also talked to my TWO OF my number ones last night on the phone for a few hours. I love them both.
Secret #2
Im afraid of telling you.
x.
