And I'm only doing this paragraph for you, because I think you're a cool guy, and a sweet friend.. And I'm upset, and shhh don't want to lose you as a friend ?
And I really also hope, you know this blog post is about you. ( its obvious ).
K, so something happened along the way.. First, I feel really bad =( I'm not feeling sorry for myself though.. Yes I AM a bitch at times, I know, so does everyone that knows me. But I don't get how you can go from being so cool, and nice and caring, to not giving a shit. Maybe you still do care about things the way I knew you too, JUST URGGGH I DONT KNOW. And I'm really frustrated and I'm really upset and I'm sorry. And I hope you talk to me.. Soon. So that I can explain. It's cool though, I think ima leave you alonee for a bit, let you chill with your friends and girlfriend. Which I also don't get ? Cuz I thought we were cool like that, and you could tell me when something like that happens, I don't get why you didn't tell me, it matters because that makes me think you don't trust me or something ? ( Kay now you know this is obviously about you .. ) I'm not upset, I've just had a frustrating week, and I know that that's no excuse. I was trying to tell you last night that, that if you don't want to be friends then I get that =) ? Because people came and people go. Everything happens for a reason.
Am I blowing this out of proportion ? Buttt I can't be i'm just telling you what I think.
Fights make relationships stronger. Most of the time ??
But will this one get weaker ? I'm really confused ? And I think we both need a reality check. On a lot of things !
This isn't a cry for attention, just finally saying what I have had on my mind for a while..
.. I .. I urg, dont know what to say ? .. But yah..
Sadface.
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I'm hanging out with Beau today and/or tomorrow. Hes really cool, and really sweet. He admited to crying in the notebook ^_^ lololl hes such a cutie. .. I can't wait to hug him. I love hugs.
Amye called me last night, freaking out ?? And I deleted the image =( Sorry.
What a stressful day..
x.
