And last night I cracked. No one was up, and I text ed some friends that help lighten my mood all the time.. Only one person was up -_-.. Anyways, I was trying to keep everything in.. And just got upset and broke down. I don't have anyone to tell shit too so, I thought, since this friend tells me things they feel.. the odd time, I can tell them things I feel, you know? A two way kinda deal thing. Kristen doesn't know what to say when I tell her those kinda things. I just want someoneeee to getttt meeeee. Like common already. Where are the people that can relate when I need someone. I was also thinking last night.. about me step dad.. My now ex-step-dad. Everything that I was trying to ignore.. It came back up. Like heart burning. Burning away at me..
I'M SO MAD THIS CAT DUMPED MY WATER ALL OVER MY WRITING BOOK.. ='(
There's so much on my back. I'm getting my piercing(s) done.
I don't even know what to blog about. He won't look at me anymore..
How come all people can talk about is getting stoned? How sickening. Blah I just get so sick of life.
I blame myself everyday, and wonder what I did so wrong to have you shut me out of your life completely.. I give my number, not a call. I call, not an answer. I look at my past and try to see what it is I did so wrong or how I offended you so much to just close me off... FUCK WHATEVER...
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