its pretty sad..

How I write SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much, in my book, on nexopia, on blogger, on facebook on msn .. Letters to people that I don't send (LOLOL shh, I do that !) This blog makes me happy though. Its somewhere were I can resort to after a long day. And kinda spill. So theres this guy I like, and im trying to make it obvious that I dont like him, when I actually do. And I think i'm winning, I think he thinks I dont like him.. But I do.. Did I say that twice? URGGHH. Im so upset about this. I found this guy, hes awesome !! AND IMM SOOO GLADDD I MET HIM, well ran into him really, long story. anyways, when Im not with him, its like I want to talk to you? and when I fall asleep im wondering how you are? and I dont know if thats even normal? And i dont know why I feel this way? I wonder what you think about me.. ? And should I even bother wondering? and this BLOG POST TOTALLY GIVES IT AWAY THAT I LIKE YOU. I may as well say names.. Not like you're going to read this.. And I think, the more I write in my book, the more my thoughts deepen and open up new parts of me that I didnt even know was there!! It's kind of scary actually ill jot something down and be like HOLY MOFO I WROTE THAT ?!?! WTF !! and and annnd.. I dunno =( It just makes me sad that you cant see.. Or that I'm a fucking idiot. Either way, im stupid. and i hate this. and im done. and i hope to talk to you.. soon.

x.