How come i ignore the poeple that are good to me, treat them badly.. But yet the people that treat me like shit i'm as nice as I can get too?. Sometimes I dont even get me. What MOST people see is happy, upbeat me. But just like everyone else-maybe more than most people, I too have problems. People dont even know. urg it makes me so mad sometimes. No, im not perfect. I'm like the farthest person from it! I just wish that, instead of judging me someone would actually sit down and talk with me. Understand. Listen. Im thanking god for the friends I have. But sometimes i need someone to just.. Get me. Like most people I feel like im the only one going through what i'm going through.. Which is totally NOOOTTT true. And there is worse out there.. Blahh. Neverminnnndd.
Sometimes I just need a hug
Amye. I wonder how many ballz in the face rugby players get on average ? :) I miss herr. Amye Folk ! orr T-Folk or or orrr " bug gehetto bootay serves Amye " That one was my volleyball cheer, when she served I yelled that.. Bart (coach) Always got mad at me. hahaha He'd also get mad when I'd roll my eyes =/ Have I ever mentioned I HATE BART. and how bad his teaching is ! ! wowoww. Mrs. wilfong or, Wild-frog (vice principle). I almost cried. I miss her aahh. Is that so weird ?!. and when her and Gord (mr Taylor principle) told me what they told me that day sitting in Bart's office. I wanted to die. I know i'll always have someone that, no matter what, will accept me. I dont like thinking about my last day in Craik. =(
7 months now.. Its been 7 months.. .. Since I've talked to my mom...
She has my new number. Had my other number I was using in SK.. Why didn't she call? Whys she getting re-married and moving to Nova Scotia with adam and emma? Whys she having another kid.. Why has she not bothered to call me ? How can somebody not even care so much! And how come im hurting so bad from this.. When I lived with her.. No, you wouldnt even know. No one will EVER get it.. It wasnt that she was a bitch. No. There was so much fucking more. The things she did, said and the way she moved and acted around me and adam and emma. She thought she was powerful... My step dad, she fucked up with being with him.. He left her. I dont even wanna talk about when he was around. Some people have secrets. Deep. Dark ones.. And this I dare say is one. I guess i've been through SO much, in every category, and I like to say that ive seen it all.. Who do I have to talk to though? No one gets it.. I think thers only EVER been one person, Camisha, who understood. She went through the same thing. Only, now i get shiped out here.. I will say, I am MORE happy. Im not as i use to be 3 or 2 or even 1 month ago. The people that mean or ment the most to me I couldnt even tell.. my mom would laugh in my face and tell me to stop lying. Wait, what am I even talking about.. Ahhhh.
My bestieess. I need them, Kabri. Amye. Amber.
And I also need Mellissa and Camisha =(. Kabri worrte me a letter that I was re-reading to my grandma. I had to stop before I cyied my eyes out. Ill quote one of the things that kills me " PS Dont forget to laugh at a funny drawing, It might start a great friendship" Yes, that. there. That kills me. All I'm trying to say is.. Being u here... Will I ever find someone that will get me, again?
My emo thoughts. How I vent.
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