AAAAH im going to start by saying.. I LOST MY NOSE RING SOMWHERE IN thiiiss HUGE Iron man blanket. Ermm.. Yah, my dad gave i too me.. dont ask.
So I got a text this morning, that woke me up =/ from my dear friend Amye =D her and I go waaaaaaaayyyyyy back. Like she use to live in this Pentiction area when I did, and she made fun of me in brownies.. Then millions of years later we BOTH somehow end up in a town of 400, high school students=24 andd TWO provinces over! wowowowww. If you ask me, we were suppose to be friends.. And well, she woke me up this morning. Can I say something ? Shes amazing. One of my best friends. aannnnd I'd do anything for her :).
But yah, she woke me up this morning. Then I had these thoughts scattering allll in my mindd. About, well.. EVERYTHING. Guys, love, hate, friends, family.. Thers so much going on right now, can I start by saying another one of my long term friends WON'T even talk to me D= aahh. Makes me kinnndaaa upset, you know. Can I also say that I believe EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.. and that I think you can fall in love more than once. But my heart keeps beating towards this one person.. the one person I want to tel everything too, be with, share with and its no one of past realationshipsssss. Those guys that I swore I loved, used me.. Got with my ( former ) best friend lied to me and treated me like shit.. Thats ANOTHER lonnnng ass story.
Anyways, back on topic. This guy.. Hes like everything i want everythingI need. Only right now, I think i'm the only out of us two feeling that waaay. aaah noo.
Writing, writing, writinnggg. I keep writing these poems in my book ! and I dont even know what they mean, they just come to me.. And they confuse and scare me.. I will admit, im a confusing person, and everything is just coming to my head randomly.. Like I can tell you like her by when you finish talking to her.. Your all happy and gitty. I mean, Good :) Im happy you foundd this easier than me. Founddd whattttt though ?! I dont even know =(
I just want a hug.
I love hugs. They say one a day can take some stress away. No joke. BING it betccch ! hahahaa. I was reading over my OOLLDDDDDD really really reallly superrrr old post(s) and wow.. Ive changed even in like 2 months Ive became someone new.. Someone that I dont even understand yet..
I miss the old me.
The people ive been chilling with have rubbed off on me I guesss. And I dont like it.. WAIT, pauseeeee. Did I just say I dont like who I am ?!?! aahhh. No. Scratch that..
I love who I am.
And the people in my life.. And how you ever thought to yourself, whats the purpose of this person, why are they in my life ? I think that with every person I meettt. Sometimes I like to overthink these kinda things.. Especially love, soulmates and things like that. Me and this girl, had this beat up summer, she fell in love. By her stories I could tell that a love that simple was something greater than anything other form of liiifeeeee. She use to tell me what her and this guy use to do, sneak out in the middle of the night, watch the water and just talk. all night. every night. The purest kind. Now, he hardly talks to her.. Summer romance ? erm, no. I told her if they really loved each other that somehow they will get pulled back together againn. And sooner than later, he sent her an e-mail. Sometimes I think its better when people tell people how they feel.. Makes things.. Easier to deal with. But as she trys to deny the love she feels for him, the truth seeps through her. I understand this girl. We went EVERYDAY for 4 months txting each day literally everyday, hanging out as much as possible and everything we went through matched up. She was suppose to come into my life for some reason.. Maybe so they we BOTH had someone to lean on. My summmer starrted the same way, and guy with the world on his shoulders, girls begging for him at his feet, smooth talker. All thee works.. I scored :). I was one of the luckest girls ever this summer, falling for one of the best. he WAS amazing, the way he kissed me, held me, talked to me, listened, and my best memory is swimming with him. anding sitting on the dock watching the sunset. His life was and IS extremely messed. I guess thats what I like though, guys that need someone.. The people who reach out and need help are the people I seek. Anyways, he turned out to be something different, didnt take me back after one night. At 11:11 he wished i wouldn't move, then he moved.. then I moved. We always wished on 11:11 and my former friend always wished on 12:34.. those times suck. They need to be proven different, that the way we feel can be changed. shaped. and evolve..
Imma loser =D I know. wow this is a lonnng post, and Im not even done.
Buttt I have SO much to say. Im going to be alone on christmas =(. Brother at gf's and my dad's going to be working..
x.
So I got a text this morning, that woke me up =/ from my dear friend Amye =D her and I go waaaaaaaayyyyyy back. Like she use to live in this Pentiction area when I did, and she made fun of me in brownies.. Then millions of years later we BOTH somehow end up in a town of 400, high school students=24 andd TWO provinces over! wowowowww. If you ask me, we were suppose to be friends.. And well, she woke me up this morning. Can I say something ? Shes amazing. One of my best friends. aannnnd I'd do anything for her :).
But yah, she woke me up this morning. Then I had these thoughts scattering allll in my mindd. About, well.. EVERYTHING. Guys, love, hate, friends, family.. Thers so much going on right now, can I start by saying another one of my long term friends WON'T even talk to me D= aahh. Makes me kinnndaaa upset, you know. Can I also say that I believe EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.. and that I think you can fall in love more than once. But my heart keeps beating towards this one person.. the one person I want to tel everything too, be with, share with and its no one of past realationshipsssss. Those guys that I swore I loved, used me.. Got with my ( former ) best friend lied to me and treated me like shit.. Thats ANOTHER lonnnng ass story.
Anyways, back on topic. This guy.. Hes like everything i want everythingI need. Only right now, I think i'm the only out of us two feeling that waaay. aaah noo.
Writing, writing, writinnggg. I keep writing these poems in my book ! and I dont even know what they mean, they just come to me.. And they confuse and scare me.. I will admit, im a confusing person, and everything is just coming to my head randomly.. Like I can tell you like her by when you finish talking to her.. Your all happy and gitty. I mean, Good :) Im happy you foundd this easier than me. Founddd whattttt though ?! I dont even know =(
I just want a hug.
I love hugs. They say one a day can take some stress away. No joke. BING it betccch ! hahahaa. I was reading over my OOLLDDDDDD really really reallly superrrr old post(s) and wow.. Ive changed even in like 2 months Ive became someone new.. Someone that I dont even understand yet..
I miss the old me.
The people ive been chilling with have rubbed off on me I guesss. And I dont like it.. WAIT, pauseeeee. Did I just say I dont like who I am ?!?! aahhh. No. Scratch that..
I love who I am.
And the people in my life.. And how you ever thought to yourself, whats the purpose of this person, why are they in my life ? I think that with every person I meettt. Sometimes I like to overthink these kinda things.. Especially love, soulmates and things like that. Me and this girl, had this beat up summer, she fell in love. By her stories I could tell that a love that simple was something greater than anything other form of liiifeeeee. She use to tell me what her and this guy use to do, sneak out in the middle of the night, watch the water and just talk. all night. every night. The purest kind. Now, he hardly talks to her.. Summer romance ? erm, no. I told her if they really loved each other that somehow they will get pulled back together againn. And sooner than later, he sent her an e-mail. Sometimes I think its better when people tell people how they feel.. Makes things.. Easier to deal with. But as she trys to deny the love she feels for him, the truth seeps through her. I understand this girl. We went EVERYDAY for 4 months txting each day literally everyday, hanging out as much as possible and everything we went through matched up. She was suppose to come into my life for some reason.. Maybe so they we BOTH had someone to lean on. My summmer starrted the same way, and guy with the world on his shoulders, girls begging for him at his feet, smooth talker. All thee works.. I scored :). I was one of the luckest girls ever this summer, falling for one of the best. he WAS amazing, the way he kissed me, held me, talked to me, listened, and my best memory is swimming with him. anding sitting on the dock watching the sunset. His life was and IS extremely messed. I guess thats what I like though, guys that need someone.. The people who reach out and need help are the people I seek. Anyways, he turned out to be something different, didnt take me back after one night. At 11:11 he wished i wouldn't move, then he moved.. then I moved. We always wished on 11:11 and my former friend always wished on 12:34.. those times suck. They need to be proven different, that the way we feel can be changed. shaped. and evolve..
Imma loser =D I know. wow this is a lonnng post, and Im not even done.
Buttt I have SO much to say. Im going to be alone on christmas =(. Brother at gf's and my dad's going to be working..
x.
