Poor blog. I've abandoned the thing. I've allowed my thoughts wonder and escalate to things that should seem impossible to think of in times like these. I just need to get it out.
Poor notebook. I've torn the pages. Let my tears streak the ink. I've allowed my pen to dig deep into the pages of words, I should, but dont regret writing.
Poor past. My subconcious only allows me to remember so much. The thoughts of you are slowly drifting away. A place where the world mets the horizen of a beautiful bolding light that blinds. It kills the eyes. You shouldn't look there. They tell you. But why don't you?. Falling into this hole. You cant go there! Dont allow the words to suck you in. Go in there.. Fall deep. Look into the cracking horizon of light. Allow yourself to do what YOU think needs to be done. They'll scream at you. Yell words that you've only heard in the forbidden world. Dont surrender. Dont break. Stay strong, believe you can. And you shall.
PS. I need you..
It's not about being stuck in the past, or being stuck in what you think the future will become. Its about what the moment brings you. Don't judge it, when the best feels asthough it is failing on you. Don't fail on it. Keep it going. Keep it alive. Allow yourself to open, and love, and think, and believe. Be there. Not only for you, but for the others around you. Dont allow yourself to get lost in this world that hath been created by our enemy, and the people that claim to be its best friend. If you can think it, In the moment, If you can believe it. You know you're strong enough not to fail. So dont fail. Saying you won't is sometimes the hardest thing you can bring yourself to do.. Dont think that. Dont let your thoughts get seperated. The good and the evil are powerful living things that are obsticals that can bring you to your knees. Dont allow it. Dont allow yourself to do that.. Dont.
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