FUCK WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED????!

Dear blog, I am currently upset. I just want to die. I always say things without thinking, thats what my problem is. And it really FUCKS ME OVER ALL THE FUCKING TIME. I'm just going to lie here, slit my throat, and wish to be in a better place. Or. I could just lay here. My body motionless, thoughtless.. It would soon turn into this heavy mass of nothing. Empty, rotting, decaying. It would soon be nothing, like I have become. Nothing. No meaning, no point, no reason for being here. Just a lifeless, fucked up, body. One that doesn't deserve what is given to it. Why should this body even stay living?. I just want to throw it into a bottomless pit and listen to wind press against it's every crevice as it falls into nothing. Exactly what it began as, nothing. It's just something walking, moving, breathing, feeling more pain with every breath. Why should the passer by's care though?. No one will even take a glance at this body. No one will ever stop and take the time to look at the uniqueness of it. Why should they? What's there to appreciate? It's just a messed up thing that lingers, taking up air and space. This is it. It's done. Forever. It shall be gone. Vanished. Without a trace. Without a person knowing.. It's gone..

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