Always. I always do it. Fuck things up. And I always go back and think of all the other things I could have said. I feel sick. So sick. Stop getting so hung up on this. I'm just nervous. And upset.. EXTREMELY. I feel like I should just tell myself to give up, but i've don't that too much and i do not want to give up anymore ! I have to fight for what I want, what I neeeed. .. What can I do. pass out and watch the world pass me by some more. I was off of the ground, and now this is just bringing me to my knees again. I read once, something that went like " When the world brings you to your knees it's the perfect time to pray " But.. I already do that.... I'm going to do what I always do.
Giving up is something I am NOT about to do right now though .. As long as people don't give up on me.. And stop fucking around with my life, and my feelings.
Like Owl City had once said " Are you there, or are you just a decoy of my dream in my head "
eff. I'm now laughing at myself. FTW.
Kassie (L). Shes my new everything, one of my new best friends.
x.
