I have everyone to tell these things to .. But no one that will understand. Only so many people get it.. People are in my life for a reason.. Right. Stated. I already know that. But why are you here ? And what have I learned from you.. That everyone can hurt you, so don't let people in so easily?. Or is it not to let go of what you think will happen in the future? If this continues, the people here, i want here.. And the people who just walk out and don't care, i want gone. Rid me of the bad. A good friend will talk to you.. And tell you things and help you out.. You have to give that back if you want it. If you're just going to be coming back and forth in my life then I honestly want you gone. I cant handle someone being a fake friend. Only coming when you want to. So, I've said i would never do this.. But i'm giving up on a good friend=( I just wish you would confide in me the way you used to ? URGGH. I don't want to give up on you.. But you have already given up on me if feels like.. Fuck. ='( Everything is just breaking into tiny sheds of glass right now, and if you come, trying to fix it it'll prick you, because i'm too negative sometimes, and don't want your help.. But if you BELIEVE that you can help me, and try to piece together the tiny shreds then maybe.. Just maybe, i'll allow you in. From there, we grow. We will intertwine into one not have anything to hide because we will both know everything about each other by then..

I shouldn't waste my time on you; but i have a feeling that you are true..

I try giving up, but this task always fails, i need you here.. Its more easily said

than it is done. But soon i will have won.

^ See how weak that is. Thats like the WORST thing i've EVER written. I need you here, friend.

x. ='(