Ask yourself what you're mother fucking purpose is here. Not here. On this planet. Here. In my life. Why did you take the time to click that link and bring you to my blog, and start reading this? Do you want to know more about me ? Do you love me ? Are you my best friend ? It better be all of the above. Because I love you. And I suck at expressing my feelings to people that don't express them to me. It is not that I give up easily, no thats not it at all.. It's just that I have been mistreated and now am afraid of certain things. YES, that is correct. I am blaming my problems? on everyone else. And why I am saying this I don't even know, but I do know it is telling you, whoever you are, about me.. And thats why you're on my fucking blog. I am currently inlove. So don't even try winning my heart over, actually. PLEASE TRY. Because who I claim to " love " Is someone that.. Makes me feel sick to my stomach. Someone who is in the now. And he is everything I DON'T want. My best friends. I love you. There is NOT a day that goes by were I don't talk to my best friends. My eyes are green, my hair is naturally blonde and my personality is shit. My finger holds a ring, one that I never leave the house without. It holds my heart. As it also holds one of my closets friends heart. She means the world to me. Seeing as how this post is about my life.. or now it is at least, I could tell you about my past. But those are deep, buried times that I hardly re-visit myself. Odds are though, if you ask, I'll tell you. Because I like when people want to know more about me. I hold some people very closely, and others I allow them to drift away. I do not like when people drift away. It leaves that hole, the one that Kassie and I like to call loneliness. Obviously you don't know me. And I've done nothing but write down pointless shit. And wonder why you are reading this. Because not only do I not give a shit about you, you are my world. I can honestly say that I miss my mom. Someone who doesn't miss me. I can also say that I don't want someone to go. because they are so much in my life, and help me stay on top of things. I am just writing now, not thinking.
I am NOT inlove, but I do however adore a lot of people. I lied. And I want nothing more from you..
I do like helping strangers though. I like when random people ask me for help.. It's not that I want to know them. It is that it makes me feel better that I helped a complete random person.
This post is lame.
My thoughts are distracted.
x.
